It’s been two years now. Two years since I looked fear in the face and boarded a plane bound for the jungles of Belize. It was a rather innocuous week-long mission trip, but prior to our departure, I had been an anxious mess. I’d never been a worried traveler. My passport was marked with the stamps of England, Costa Rica, South Korea, Mexico, the Caribbean. But this time it was different. This time I was a mom.
Motherhood has a way of turning your heart inside out, your life upside down. My husband and I would be leaving our two children (I was pregnant with number three) with my own mom so we could serve for a week in Belize. And frankly, fear seized me at the very thought of the separation.
Anxiety and depression flooded my mind. A cacophony of what ifs echoed throughout my head. Darkness was my constant companion, peace was hopelessly elusive.
The journey leading up to our departure was a messy one. It was fraught with worry, punctuated by a few neurologist appointments, defined by two MRI scans. Because anxiety has a way of robbing peace from your soul and health from your body. You don’t merely hear worry reverberate through your thoughts, you feel it in your bones.
But God is the ultimate healer, and He promises a peace that passes understanding. In time, my spirit found rest in Him alone, and my physical symptoms slowly disappeared.
As my husband prepares to return to Belize this year, I’m thinking back on my journey through anxiety and the way The Lord led me through the battle. If you’ve ever struggled with anxiety yourself, or if you simply need to be reminded of the source of unsurpassing peace, you can read my six-part story, starting here.
And while we’re on the subject of anxiety, I’m excited to announce that I’ve just started working on a little e-book project, tentatively titled When Worries Cease. It’s in the beginning phases now, but I look forward to keeping you posted! And I sincerely hope and pray it will be a source of encouragement to all who read!
What’s your story? Have you struggled with anxiety more now that you’re a mom? I’d love to hear your thoughts in the comments!
Linking today’s post up with Lisa-Jo Baker for Five-Minute Friday.
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